July 3rd, 2010


So this morning I was a lazy parent. It happens. Everybody does it at some point, right? The baby wakes up (more like the toddler, he is almost 2) and your not ready to get up yet so what do you do? I did what I wanted to do, of course. I got the kid out of bed, changed his diaper and took him back to bed with me. I knew he wouldn't be interested in sleeping so I put on the movie "Bolt" and managed to get over a half an hour of sleep/snuggle time. Now I dont do this every morning, but probably once or twice a month I take advantage of the opprtunity to kill two birds with one stone. A catnap and the chance to snuggle with my son, since he is at an age where sitting still isn't something he is normally interested in. He even sweatened the deal by giving me a kiss to wake me up.

I promise this rant is going somewhere, really. Being a single mom who had to move back in with her parents life for me is difficult. There is always people around, something I'm not fond of and one person in particular. My little brother (who is hardly little, he is 22 years old). Anyways He continues to go on and on about how I'm this horrible parent because i didn't get the baby up and get his day started right away and so on and so forth and I was floored. This comming from the guy who has never worked a day in his life, who never finished highschool, and who has a daughter himself and maybe see's her a few times a year and offers no financial help to the mother what-so-ever! Not to mention a theif, never leave your purse where you can't see it, even for a second because your money, smokes and any prescriptions you may have will go missing.

he even goes ape shit over the fact that when the baby wakes me up in the morning, instead of getting the baby up right away i go out to the kitchen and put on a pot of coffee, use the restroom and splash some cold water on my face before i get the baby out of bed. I promise the baby isn't crying or screaming and for the most part waits patiently for me to return to the room within 3 or 4 minutes of him waking me up. This annoys my brother as well.

I don't understand why he feels like he has the room to judge me. I have worked since I was 16, I finished school when I was supposed to, I have lived on my own since I was 18 and with the exception of not paying any rent I recieve no financial help from my parents what-so-ever. I pay my own bills, buy my and my sons groceries, clothes and anything else we may need. I even pay my parents $10 a month to help with the cable bill since i have it hooked up in my room, $15 a month to help with the internet since I use it and $100 a month to put towards the utilities. I even pick up the groceries to make dinner 2 or 3 nights a week for the entire family.

And any time anything goes missing (which is often) I can't say anything to him without him flying off the handle and screaming and throwing things and calling me a "Fat fucking cunt/bitch/whore" and my parents? tell me to not bring anything in the house that i dont want to go missing. So i dont. I buy my smokes by the pack instead of the carton so i can keep track of them better, i never have cash on me, debit only and any medications i have i keep in a lock box in my room (yes he will take your pills, not just a few either. all of them. he took my entire prescription of loratabs after i had my son so i had to heal from a c-section with no pain medication and he took most of my pills after my foot surgery a few weeks ago because i caught him in my room while i was sleeping taking them out of my purse. since i didn't have my walking boot on yet he knew he could get out without me being able to catch him so he took my pills and took off while i sat there ready to cry) he has even stolen my car keys and cleaned all the money out of my car and empty's the baby's piggy bank that i was always dropping my change in (i was easily putting fourty bucks a month into that thing)

just needed to vent and some of your opinions on what i should do. I cant afford to move out yet and whenever i say anything to my parents they tell me to move out if i dont like it.