so i'm not pregnant. i found out this morning. even though i should be greatfull and relived, im sad.
i would have been bring a child into a family with no father, but i would have loved it.
this may sound funny but i even picked out names the other night. if i had a girl i would have named her Bella Lura. if i had a boy i would have named him Gavin Dryden.
even though i was scared, i would have been an great mom. when i would see little kids running around, especially last night being Halloween and all, i would start to think like a mother.
i wondered what my child would look like, what type of person they were, what they would grow up to be... seeing their hopes and dreams come true. first steps, first words first birthday.
i don't have any of that anymore. Current Mood: sad