Weekends I guess it varies. I've setup "wifi password privileges" and they have to do certain things throughout the week to get the new wifi password. This really motivates the older one b/c he wants to game and be accessible to all his other buddies.
So any feedback would be appreciated. Happy monday!
7.5 - (Xayden) "I can make mine bigger, give me a sec"
When we were together it was easy and natural for me to keep her up on the kids activities and games and make sure she was there even though she worked while being there.
With her moving out, I put in a lot of effort to remind of the boys soccer and baseball and basketball games and also that they had guitar practice or drum practice or that they were doing the crafts at home depot on this day and time and that she should come. And by remind...I would send her an email each week with the schedule of events and then text her morning noon and after work the day of to remind her. She would make some here and there and as I stated, work the whole time.
So the past month I thought screw that. I'm not her parent either and so I send out a weekly email to her and to my siblings and parents (b/c they have been stepping up to support the boys) and she has maybe hit 1-3 since then - IN A MONTH.
My oldest, Xander, gets so upset he cries the whole way home when she's not there. He almost hyperventalates b/c he is so upset and he is so angry at me. I tell him to call her and ask HER why she didn't make it. And he does this and she tells him some crap that she didn't know or didn't see that email and that maybe I didn't send it.
So now - I have HIM send the email to her, even from his own email account. Did she come this weekend???? NOPE. So when she did show up on Saturday to carve pumpkins with us he asked her flat out "why did you miss my soccer game?" and she says "I didn't know you had one today, no one told me" and he didn't even say a word...just the look on his face was like he finally got it and knows that his mother was a liar. Not that this made me happy b/c then the look on his face showed heartbreak and he excused himself and went to the bathroom and cried.
But you know what? He didn't cry for her when she left that night. He simply said goodbye and gave her a quick hug and he didn't mention her the rest of the weekend.
As much as it broke his heart knowing now whom she really is, it broke mine too.
She cheated, granted, but I couldn't work it out and now my 10 year old blames me
b/c she's just become more engrossed into her career. They live wtih me b/c her work is demanding (attorney)
and her career is very important to her. She picks 3 days a week that she stops by and hangs out with them and when she leaves my oldest tells me over and over how he hates me. It's been since well...I guess June when she moved out. The 7 year old just laughs about her almost. He makes comments to me and brother "oh, you know she won't come" or "you know she forgot..."...and that breaks my heart hearing him lose hope. I don't know.
I'm so thankful to be part of this group! I look forward to sharing tips and experiences with you all. I am sort of a newly single parent. I'm 35 yrs old with a 5yo daughter and 2.5 yo son.
It's very hard to figure out how much to share. I could write a small novel.
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I wrote a huge section, about the size of the text above, about our relationship and how it got to that point, but feel it might be too much to share(?)
The only other thing besides figuring out housing and how we're going to manage financially, that I'm trying to figure out right now, is my poor kids :( My son, who was very anti-social from infancy, started paying a lot of attention to older males. He even called one daddy yesterday, after the man ignord him when he said hi :( It is heartbreaking to see him reaching out to males :( My daughter is mostly ok but she has never been a complainer and has started having stomachaches and when she's just on her own playing or whatever, she sometimes looks so very sad :( I called an agency that exists to help separated and divorced families to ask about counselling for kids, but they haven't called back yet. My ex has never been involved in the family or home, but he did play with them once in a while. He was rough with them, very impatient, but still their father.
HE came by to get the rest of his clothes on Thursday and refused to see them. My son begged and pulled me upstairs to see him and after 5 mins of giving me shit for letting our son see him, he said hi to him :( He has made no plans to see them. Also, his new girlfriend's place is 2.5 hrs away :/ which totally doesn't make sense for his job or for seeing his kids. Last time he moved out it was an hour and a half away and he swore the next place would be in our neighborhood. .. clearly he is choosing her over us. He is also a huge liar. .oh god, I could write in here for pages. . .
That is where we are right now.
Well I wanted to stop in and say HI...Im a single parent to a almost 7yr old son. It sure hasn't been a easy task being a parent let alone a single mom. I was on LJ before he was born and made some good friends. So Im hoping to do the same again but this time with people of similar interests.
My son has been the strength I need to go on each day. Especially lately since I was laid off...I have been real down but knowing I have a reason to get up each day has kept me going.
I dont want to bore anyone on my first visit here...just wanted to stop in. Im relearning LJ again so give me time to get my profile up and running.
Have a great night!!!
I promise this rant is going somewhere, really. Being a single mom who had to move back in with her parents life for me is difficult. There is always people around, something I'm not fond of and one person in particular. My little brother (who is hardly little, he is 22 years old). Anyways He continues to go on and on about how I'm this horrible parent because i didn't get the baby up and get his day started right away and so on and so forth and I was floored. This comming from the guy who has never worked a day in his life, who never finished highschool, and who has a daughter himself and maybe see's her a few times a year and offers no financial help to the mother what-so-ever! Not to mention a theif, never leave your purse where you can't see it, even for a second because your money, smokes and any prescriptions you may have will go missing.
he even goes ape shit over the fact that when the baby wakes me up in the morning, instead of getting the baby up right away i go out to the kitchen and put on a pot of coffee, use the restroom and splash some cold water on my face before i get the baby out of bed. I promise the baby isn't crying or screaming and for the most part waits patiently for me to return to the room within 3 or 4 minutes of him waking me up. This annoys my brother as well.
I don't understand why he feels like he has the room to judge me. I have worked since I was 16, I finished school when I was supposed to, I have lived on my own since I was 18 and with the exception of not paying any rent I recieve no financial help from my parents what-so-ever. I pay my own bills, buy my and my sons groceries, clothes and anything else we may need. I even pay my parents $10 a month to help with the cable bill since i have it hooked up in my room, $15 a month to help with the internet since I use it and $100 a month to put towards the utilities. I even pick up the groceries to make dinner 2 or 3 nights a week for the entire family.
And any time anything goes missing (which is often) I can't say anything to him without him flying off the handle and screaming and throwing things and calling me a "Fat fucking cunt/bitch/whore" and my parents? tell me to not bring anything in the house that i dont want to go missing. So i dont. I buy my smokes by the pack instead of the carton so i can keep track of them better, i never have cash on me, debit only and any medications i have i keep in a lock box in my room (yes he will take your pills, not just a few either. all of them. he took my entire prescription of loratabs after i had my son so i had to heal from a c-section with no pain medication and he took most of my pills after my foot surgery a few weeks ago because i caught him in my room while i was sleeping taking them out of my purse. since i didn't have my walking boot on yet he knew he could get out without me being able to catch him so he took my pills and took off while i sat there ready to cry) he has even stolen my car keys and cleaned all the money out of my car and empty's the baby's piggy bank that i was always dropping my change in (i was easily putting fourty bucks a month into that thing)
just needed to vent and some of your opinions on what i should do. I cant afford to move out yet and whenever i say anything to my parents they tell me to move out if i dont like it.